

there were some increasingly crazy people on the inside of that group. I didn’t have the energy to fight a battle on multiple fronts. Crazy people have infinite energy.
I decided to shift gears and now I go out into the woods and fix up hiking trails, but even there we come across crazy people who try to place traps to hurt people. We have one parcel of land where someone is cutting trees so that they fall on people hiking. This person has been doing this for years and never been caught, but we have to keep going in and cutting down trees because of this psycho. Thankfully it’s only one person in one place though and the trees and rocks and dirt don’t flip out at you and most people who see us say thank you.
i am not depressed or anxious.
I still don’t like talking to people, because they are boring and really selfish. I like talking to people who aren’t selfish and rude, who are doing interesting things, but those people are very rare. maybe 1/10 people I meet is worth my time, and maybe 1/50 actually is enjoyable and fun to be around such that I enjoy their company. I actively date, and socialize several times a month.
the more i socially isolate, the better my mental health and mood generally are. I absolutely loved the pandemic those were 2 of the best years of my life. I haven’t hung out or met anyone new in two weeks now and I am in a way better mood than I was around the holidays when I had to do a bunch of social stuff.