Covid did this to me… 🙃
Also I have family members that are just like sometimes don’t wash their hands after using the bathroom… so yea that really just triggers me…
Honestly this is probably kinda makes me a bit suicidal…
Which is ironic because the fear of germs is a fear of death…
but sometimes this fear is just so big I can’t deal with it…
wtf…


You’re describing OCD.
OCD is treatable, so I’d work towards getting a formal diagnosis and begin treatment.