Not going to offer many details on the where or how, as I don’t intend to dox myself, but suffice it to say that I will continue touching butts for an extended period. I don’t like feeling aroused by the act. These people placed trust in me. Trust that I mean them no harm and that I am safe to be around. I can certainly be both while aroused, but I’d rather not have to deal with this.
I’d prefer not to dissociate through work, but I can’t find another way to contextualize my experiences in a way that doesn’t leave me frustrated until I get home.
That has been my mindset going in, but maintaining it has lessened the issue rather than alleviating it entirely.
I would never act on them. There’s 0 chance of that, which has pinned my hope for resolution
Thats sounds great already! I hope you can find peace with it.