Not going to offer many details on the where or how, as I don’t intend to dox myself, but suffice it to say that I will continue touching butts for an extended period. I don’t like feeling aroused by the act. These people placed trust in me. Trust that I mean them no harm and that I am safe to be around. I can certainly be both while aroused, but I’d rather not have to deal with this.
I’d prefer not to dissociate through work, but I can’t find another way to contextualize my experiences in a way that doesn’t leave me frustrated until I get home.
As a pro your career depends on your ability to be completely dispassionate in the non-work aspects of butt, you must classify them as “work butts” where the work butts may hold work-related and necessary information and be required, but they are fundamentally different from the fun “non-work” butts. You just have to turn those thoughts off. I’ve been disassociating in the human services field for a really long time so I know it is easier said than done, but your professional and personal life really do depend your ability to compartmentalize these things. Maybe think of them as slabs of meat.