Not going to offer many details on the where or how, as I don’t intend to dox myself, but suffice it to say that I will continue touching butts for an extended period. I don’t like feeling aroused by the act. These people placed trust in me. Trust that I mean them no harm and that I am safe to be around. I can certainly be both while aroused, but I’d rather not have to deal with this.
I’d prefer not to dissociate through work, but I can’t find another way to contextualize my experiences in a way that doesn’t leave me frustrated until I get home.
I guess that makes sense.
My only exposure to home health at all was an occasional drop in when I had a… damn I forget what it was called now. Similar to a central line but slightly different. Whatever it was, they would come and check on it, change out the dressing and that was it.
So I saw them for maybe half an hour at a time every week, or every other week. Sorry I’ve had a lot of surgeries and issues in the last 5 years and they tend to blur together.
I guess for regular (typically older patient) stuff, you would be around a lot more.
I have gotten way over nurses and doctors seeing me naked. The first time an attractive female nurse removes a Foley from you, you lose any chance of having a sexual reaction to that (unless that’s your thing I guess lol- and I know it’s somebody’s thing because I have run into it on the hub.
Or even if that’s not weird enough, having to go in to have a stent removed, you really, definitely are done caring about being seen like that.
But I’m regular life, I do stay clothed around everyone as an autonomous thing. Outside of medical staff (and my roommate who has to call the ambulance the one time), no one has seen me naked at all.
I’m also a single person on the grayish side of the ace spectrum, so it’s not like I have a ton of partners to look at me.