

FORTH, and as a stepping stone into more complex hardware… again. I kinda did this once before and am getting back into it.
I am just goofing around with the emulator. I would actually like to try breadboarding something without any external connection and build it up into an interpreter. Basically try to build my own basic FORTH like threaded language from scratch. It is ambitious for my skill level. I actually have the chips to build this with a 6502, 65C816, Z80, 6809, 68010, 68008, and 8085, along with a bunch of peripherals. I also have several chips running various embedded versions of FORTH. I never managed to pick up stack programming well enough. I got so caught up in just getting FORTH onto the various chips and then getting a sensor or two working, but never built anything complex or beyond tutorial scopes. Now I am thinking in terms of the fundamentals without all the extra overhead… or trying to. There are a bunch of questions in the back of my head that I would like to answer with a functional understanding. Like what are the real limits of fuzzing for unknown hidden instructions and registers, how some red team exploits work in practice, or reasons bare metal programming is uncommon on current CPU hardware… and several other lingering curiosities.
I wish I could just jump into some 3k page documentation for a modern SoC and have a chance of doing anything useful, but it seems one needs to understand a great deal of implied context and methodologies. So I go to the source of the hardware that the present leaders played with as kids, figuring I might follow the breadcrumbs to understand them.











To be determined. I probably would have been better off if I was an only child. Maybe better financially planned, but probably not. My folks lack that depth and responsible mindset due to cult like religious dogma. I fully anticipate being homeless within a decade at most. I’ll likely end up immobile as my back continues to degrade. I doubt my sister will do anything. We have not even spoken in nearly a decade. She refuses to process the complexities of disability which is reflective of her lack of logical depth. Anyone that fails to understand that a broken neck and back is an injury people do not just bounce back from, is someone too stupid for me to care. A person with two bits of dichotomous depth cannot be expected to hold 8 bits of nuance. Growth of one’s registers only comes from within. Negative feedback such as guilt and shaming will never stimulate positive growth. You cannot fix stupid in anyone other than yourself. Only worry about what you are able to change.
Use your curiosity to bootstrap yourself out of blame and dwelling on things you cannot change. You are valid for being hurt. Trauma is like a deep wound. Learning to navigate around it is hard. If you are not careful, you may be stuck in a state of shock that leads to nowhere. Nothing will make the wound go away, but you are capable of coming to terms with the past and living with the scar. Over a very long time you may find that even scars mostly fade away.