I see. Maybe learning mathematics have screwed my writing since so much of mathematical literature is simply equations, definitions and propositions. Lots of papers, and even books, are just bad at expositions, in my experience.

It takes hours to write essays for me…

I’m sure Krafton will mess it up.

The haskell examples look more like an arcane wizardry.

Do you live in where I live, that sounds exactly like my country

I’d say still risky. They might perpetuate the bubble for longer, which means high risk of forced covering at loss.

I am basically autistic with ADHD, so I personally doubt that would work…

That sounds likely for my high school days, but not for middle school ones. That said, people were likely less mature in middle school. I feel like I am very bad at masking, I wonder if it is in effect at all.

I heard Brazil did not ban twitter for good reasons, it can be to block a passage of speech.

Asking to people a bit far away will be even more weird behavior. Currently, most people do not sit near me.

I am too scared to do this in classroom…

No

Considering my high school life, it was kind of opposite - I had handful of friends then, but they went different path and it became hard to keep contact with. Others basically hated me, making fun of me and borderline bullying me.

I did become isolated in uni, I think I did stay away from others. Was too scared of making a mistake.

Thanks for kind words, I’d say my smartness is just that I took tons of time to learn. You can learn lots of knowledge given time, even math! Tho indeed, not everyone has time for learning, so it is okay to not know something! :)

Thanks, I see that it could be related. That said, I’ve spoken about this issue to many doctors and psychiatrists, and it did not help - doctors just raised dosage, and psychiatrists told me to actually talk with people. Problem is, with my social anxiety, it is so difficult to talk with people…

I see, but I am worried that the behaviors they hate on is exactly the autistic & social anxiety behaviors I exhibit.

I feel people are badmouthing me since I am hearing words like weirdo, freak, or disabled. It can be illusory, but I do think I hear them. It’s that my parents and psychiatrists say it cannot be real, so I might be mistaking something.

Oh, does RSD symptom include the illusory hearing about badmouthing? That aside, I do think only some actively participates in badmouthing behavior, and many might be ambivalent. I am not sure about this, though.

Thanks! I suspect that it continues from my high school and uni days where I was belittled a lot. The momentum is hard to overcome. That said, that people talking bad about me right now can be an illusion.

Hmm, another person commented here that attending seminar is like outsider acting like an insider. How do you think about it?