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Cake day: June 6th, 2023

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  • I usually dont engage directly with my thoughts unless I am talking to myself out loud which I often do.

    I think mostly on instinct, and rationalise/summarize my actions only if I have to.

    It’s a bit like waking up at night in a pitch black room and making your way to the toilet. You barely remember it the next morning, but if someone asks you about it you say “oh yeah maybe” and retrieve/fabricate a memory of you navigating around furniture in the dark (because you MUST have), but can’t actually recall it.


















  • For conversations I need to have, I rehearse in my head and mutter quips to myself to prepare myself for all contingencies.

    This isn’t so I will say these words to the person, but more that I’m convincing myself and arming my mouth when my brain wanders off as it is wont to do.

    On the actual day, I drink a soothing tea and don’t say anything unless the uncomfortable topic is brought up. If people clock onto my calm confidence, they usually don’t instigate.

    I’ve learned from early on that people prey only on those they perceive weak, but to pre-emptively strike is to invite ruin. So I prepare and stay quiet.

    Beer would ruin that planning as I am a lightweight