Until i was 24 I fell into a camp of thought called transmedicalism. Which is shitty because I am cis and didn’t support a friend because of it. By the time I learned what a jackass I was being he died. Don’t think my absence in his life was the nail in the coffin at all but there were way too many of us who ignored him when he was almost alone.

I don’t think just doing a 180 on my opinion there was enough

A less shitty turnaround was my atheist heelturn. I only think it’s worth mentioning because I wasn’t awakening from Christian I was awakening from loose agnostic spiritualism. Thought I should be tolerant of people’s idiosyncrasies because finding personal meaning is a deep need that we rarely ever get (Fucking ironic considering the transmedicalism, right). 2016 and the following events were my little clue-in to the possibility that people aren’t using belief as a way of building meaning, they’re using it to justify their worse impulses full stop. I never really respected enlightened reddit athiest brainlets but if there’s one thing to take away it’s that you don’t hate belief in the supernatural enough.