Not going to offer many details on the where or how, as I don’t intend to dox myself, but suffice it to say that I will continue touching butts for an extended period. I don’t like feeling aroused by the act. These people placed trust in me. Trust that I mean them no harm and that I am safe to be around. I can certainly be both while aroused, but I’d rather not have to deal with this.
I’d prefer not to dissociate through work, but I can’t find another way to contextualize my experiences in a way that doesn’t leave me frustrated until I get home.
Maybe try to see your work as systematic act. Brake the touching down into small purpose driven steps to disconnect it from sensuality during your work.
Otherwise its ok to have unprofessionel thoughts as long as you dont act on them unprofessionely.
That has been my mindset going in, but maintaining it has lessened the issue rather than alleviating it entirely.
I would never act on them. There’s 0 chance of that, which has pinned my hope for resolution
Thats sounds great already! I hope you can find peace with it.