honestly you probably are. i only made decent money doing music before i started focusing on it (the instrument i play, if you want to get paid for it you have to live in New Jersey. i made more doing sax but it’s not what i’m good at)

for me, it’s that folk where i live conflate physical and mental disability. as soon as my disability became visible, the wage people were willing to pay dropped by 2/3. i figured if i’m going to starve, i might as well have fun