Oh you are in for a treat! it’s an antique instrument with a very distinctive sound.

That you either passionately love or viscerally hate droning instruments.

I was casually dating for about 2 years I actually had put it down for a while and opened the app accidentally when she popped up.

Too many beautiful sculptures melt under the scorching gaze of capitalism.

It’s not quite the same as you describe, but I do carry the tenets of that old steampunk to my modern crafts. Right now I’m making an electric hurdy gurdy cello out of a broken guitar, a kitchen mixer, and 3d printed models of my own construction. If steampunk taught me anything it’s that anything worth doing is worth overdoing.

I’ll have to listen to this after work, but I already feel at home in the comments.

I’m much the same. When I got into it, the brass goggles forum required you to hand make and chare your goggles to be a full member. By the time I had the skill to do that, the forum had died and the fandom was a tag on Etsy for dropshippers.

I have a tangentially related thing. I got big into steampunk decades ago when it was still young. Back then, it was a maker culture, a loosely defined idea of cogs and boilers that gave you a fun little world to practice your craft in. It wasn’t just form, it was function. Hammering brass to make functional goggles, learning the Victorian techniques to whalebone corsets, clockwork to accomplish something we only do now with variable controllers.

Now I look for my people and I find a rusting husk of I knew. Gone are the color and texture, replaced by brown on brown in cotton and leather. Where once gears and cogs were carved to spin and move, now they serve only to be glued to cheap accessories. The gleaming promises of brass and copper and steel, userped by soulless luster of plastics.

We should Never have let the world in.

Lovecraft was my first experience with seperating the artist and the work. Since then, I’ve had to deal with it frequently but eventually you get used to it.

On one hand, they were absolutely crap to deal with and awfully predatory. That said, I met my spouse on Hinge so I guess I owe them enough to say it worked. Just don’t pay and don’t get discouraged when it takes time to get there.

How the fuck they gonna get to the moon if they can’t get to Kiev?

Speaking from personal experience, that’s simply not true. Narcisism is a mental disorder just like any other and can be treated with it’s own form of therapy. You are right that it can be difficult to treat as the onus of understanding falls on the patient choosing to want change in their life which means they have to admit they are wrong. That’s not impossible at all though and many full on narcissists often have a eureka moment when their cognitive dissonance can’t write off an event. On top of that, hormonal changes through life can also play a big role with many people literally growing out of it with different stages of life. Lastly, it’s often adopted by people as a trauma response, meaning that fixing the traumatic stimuli can lead to lessening narcissistic tendencies.

I personally was raised to be a narcissist, lived only with narcissists, and still have narcissistic tendencies that spawn from formative points of trauma. My moment was finding myself alone with a kid I never wanted to have and realizing that I literally had no one in my life to blame anymore. When you put yourself on an island alone so other people can’t fuck up your life anymore only to find out your life is still steadily fucking up on its own, it’s hard not to realize it’s actually you. Couple that with the pressures of parenthood, hormonal changes that no one warns men about, and the realization that I was going to do to my kid what was done to me until he found himself on that same island at 21, I decided to take drastic action.

It’s been a decade. I compartmentalize by joking that I killed that person and took his place. I still occasionally slip, I have a hard time being corrected by people I don’t respect, I instinctually judge things I don’t like as inferior, and I’m sensitive to people blaming me for things, but all of these are now within normal human response levels instead of where I was. Having that kid taught me a lot about empathy. I’m a lot more understanding of people because i realize threat people that aren’t exactly like me aren’t just idiots and fuck ups.

Narcissists are people and nobody is incapable of change.

It’s messy. Kinda like knowing you have anxiety disorder doesn’t make you not anxious. Knowing is a big step but from there you have to work out the behaviours and viewpoints that come from it and fight the instinctual drive to respond that way.

I was raised with some heavy narcissistic tendencies and my first response when I hear about people growing up with power ragers is still to assume they’re trashy and beneath me despite knowing more examples to the contrary than the supporting. I have to stop myself and actually remember not to be judgmental every time. Eventually it becomes your nature, but dome things will always put you in that head space.

I have a tally on my case.

That’s exactly what I’m thinking, newest game I play is 10 years old so I’m not expecting my cards to be out any time soon. I’m just miffed that I said I’d get more ram in December and then AI decided to eat all of it in November.

Funny enough, I’m actually running bazzite. That’s why i know there’s a memory issue instead of windows dicking around lol

My PC currently experiences a memory overload if I play ~150mods Skyrim for more than 2 hours straight. I currently have 16gb DDR4, Gtx1660 Nvidia. My thoughts are that the graphics card is the weak link but those are still too big a ticket.

I demand 100% up time from all my devices. I built my PC in 2017 and it’s been fully powered down 46 times since then and most of those were due to the municipal power grid failing.

If 'tismo is to mean autistic, that’s fucking beautiful and I’m stealing it.

My dude, saying that alone is a big step. Keep it up.