• tiredofsametab@fedia.io
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    8 months ago

    Not being able to see anything when closing my eyes and not constantly hearing a voice in my head. I have aphantasia and thought people were always seeking metaphorically about seeing things in their head.

    I only more recently learnt that people actually hear things as well as in like an internal monologue. To me, the whole thing sounds exhausting.

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      8 months ago

      Very exhausting, especially when your stupid brain makes you roleplay possible future conversations with people in your head all day. Difficult to focus and so exhausting

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        8 months ago

        Oh, I have that as well, it’s just more like … data, I guess? I think sometimes what I wrote makes people think I have no imagination or creativity; I definitely do but it’s just different.

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            8 months ago

            wdym, they’re words?

            If you’re curious when i consciously think about words, my mouth will move a little as if i’m sort of trying to say words, but otherwise generally i just type words as i need them. I cannot formulate an entire sentence without writing it down first. I often go back and completely rearrange and rewrite things because of this.

            If you think this is weird, imagine how we read. Should be impossible by that definition.

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            8 months ago

            I assume it’s the way I think of 3d objects which is that I have some sort feeling of its shape and the distance of a point to one of its surfaces. So just something that doesn’t mimic a standard sense.

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        8 months ago

        I still have the voice (and the music…) just no pictures, except when I’m really tired and it’s dark. It’s funny because a friend of mine has the exact opposite (pictures but no voice).

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      8 months ago

      And then there’s people like me, who can make an audio-visual tour in their minds, see things in color, moving pictures, hear sound, feel touch.

      Took me a long time to actually focus on mundane tasks and not doing them on autopilot.

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      8 months ago

      Think I have this. Only time I can really picture anything. At least above a part of a vague shape or higher resolution, is when I’ve recently woken up. Even then it’s a hit or miss. Wonder if it’s a wall to creativity.

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        8 months ago

        Fwiw I suck at visual art but was a musician who at least made some money at it (all original music), and ran d&d campaigns and such.

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      8 months ago

      it’s weird if you’re an aphant, because you adapt by just speaking outloud, and internally understanding things, the only real situation where it becomes problematic is when someone tries explaining it to you, because you’re on the other side of a cliff, basically.

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        8 months ago

        reading you can sort of mentally supplant. It’s really weird, but i’m very immersed into reading, like i comprehend the world building, and the writing, and the characters, and all the interactions, i can feel the environment. I can’t see anything, or hear anything, but i know what it looks like (at least i think) and i know what it sounds like.

        Think about it as if it’s a dream, and it starts to make more sense, it’s just like a conscious dream, spurred by really good story telling.

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      8 months ago

      No monologue for me but I do have aphantasia

      I’m still pretty fucking angry everyone else gets a super power