Again, I appreciate your concern but I really am not at risk. Im far too good at what I have been trained to do to take myself out before what’s to come. Im not going out senselessly. Fuck that. If I can help people, I will. And unfortunately I have been trained to be good at keeping people safe while they do their job. I assume that in the near future, my skills will be needed to help keep people safe from worse people.

Edit: it’s less “I wanna die” and more “I’m willing to die on this hill”