I noticed that it is impossible to hold it back indefinitely and I break down once a month or once every 2 weeks and no, this is not what you might have thought, this is different, but I don’t know if it is worth saying what it is with me, since I am not sure that the post will not be deleted for this. For example, the desire to beat the walls until you break your arms.
Therapy, if they are really so bad they are affecting your life negatively. Usually there is something bigger behind whatever you are struggling with.