It’s not like that. I never seriously consider it. But I think about it. It’s hard to explain, but I’m not at risk and I appreciate your concern. But for real, I’m not at risk. I’m just… Off. I’m more likely to consider it in a long line than anything really serious. Bureaucracy is more likely to make me consider it than any real life issues. Like fuck me, I have to go to the DMV? It’s more like just being sick of dealing with unnecessary bullshit.
This sounds like passive suicidal ideation: something that’s always there in the back of the mind, but not about to be actively acted on. To quote Anna Borges:
I don’t always want to be alive. Yes, I mean it. No, you shouldn’t be afraid for me. No, I’m not in danger of killing myself right now. Yes, I really mean it. How do you explain that?
It’s just like God damnit, another speed bump, another needless bullshit hoop to jump through. So it’s more of just being over the bullshit than actually being suicidal. I appreciate the concern, but it’s more like me just being sick of the bullshit.
Yeah, that makes a lot of sense. I’d love to hear of anything good you’ve got going on, though. Probably it’s not productive to carry on this thread with negativity but I’m also fully open to private messaging if you want to send complaints to me.
You might need a new vehicle.
But you shouldn’t be considering suicide regularly. It’s not a personal failing, just an indication that you need help.
I’m not a professional, but if you want to reach out, I’m a safe recipient. If you want to talk to a professional, there are resources.
Please don’t end yourself. Especially not because of your jeep. I’m certain the world is better with you in it.
It’s not like that. I never seriously consider it. But I think about it. It’s hard to explain, but I’m not at risk and I appreciate your concern. But for real, I’m not at risk. I’m just… Off. I’m more likely to consider it in a long line than anything really serious. Bureaucracy is more likely to make me consider it than any real life issues. Like fuck me, I have to go to the DMV? It’s more like just being sick of dealing with unnecessary bullshit.
This sounds like passive suicidal ideation: something that’s always there in the back of the mind, but not about to be actively acted on. To quote Anna Borges:
I keep her article in my bookmarks, and re-read now and then: https://theoutline.com/post/7267/living-with-passive-suicidal-ideation
You don’t have to defend yourself if you’re hurting. Even if you did … I get hating bureaucracy.
It’s just like God damnit, another speed bump, another needless bullshit hoop to jump through. So it’s more of just being over the bullshit than actually being suicidal. I appreciate the concern, but it’s more like me just being sick of the bullshit.
Yeah, that makes a lot of sense. I’d love to hear of anything good you’ve got going on, though. Probably it’s not productive to carry on this thread with negativity but I’m also fully open to private messaging if you want to send complaints to me.
But positivity does seem likely to be more fun.