• ThatWeirdGuy1001@lemmy.world
    10·
    1 day ago

    I’m a diagnosed sociopath. It’s one of my deepest secrets since the condition has been so demonized and I’m terrified people will just treat me like a monster despite all the effort I’ve put in to try to live a normal life.

      • ThatWeirdGuy1001@lemmy.world
        42·
        23 hours ago

        The fact that violence actually solves a lot of issues but results in punishments.

        I don’t generally care about hurting people especially if they hurt me. But consequences are real and you have to deal with them regardless.

        The amount of times I’ve had to remove myself from certain situations purely because I was about to commit extreme violence is vast.

        I don’t want to hurt anyone but in the moment I want them dead in the worst way and I know I could do it. I can see every way I could make it happen and in the moment I want to do it.

          • ThatWeirdGuy1001@lemmy.world
            1·
            49 minutes ago

            It’s the difference between feeling like doing it and having to fight every fiber of your being to stop yourself from doing it.

            In the moment it’s a pure instinctual reaction that you have to consciously ignore. Like touching a burning stove but not removing your hand. It goes against every instinct. Every rationality.

            It’s like everything in you wants to harm someone despite knowing it’s morally wrong. It’s a constant battle between instinct and conscious morality.

            I WANT to hurt people. I CHOOSE not to. Because I understand my feelings are wrong. But the feelings are still there

  • Infrapink@thebrainbin.org
    26·
    3 days ago

    I refused to let my parents visit me for my 40th birthday.

    The legitimate reason as that Dad is disabled and the journey is too long

    The reason I gave was that I still wasn’t over calling them out over favouritism when I stayed with them over Christmas.

    The actual reason is that even before Christmas I had decided I would celebrate the big 40 by hiring an escort to finally lose my virginity.

      • justdaveisfine@piefed.socialEnglish
        2·
        10 hours ago

        I actually have to a few people - But the big rebuttal seems to be ‘why would I switch from [big social media with “large reach” and near infinite content] to this?’

        If they don’t really grasp at the main appeal of the fediverse, which is that its not owned by corporations, then they likely will not move over. (and of course, most of their friends are on [big social media])

    • AskewLord@piefed.socialEnglish
      131·
      3 days ago

      unless you’re branding your posts here with your real name and trying to monetize it, you’re not really using social media in the way most folks mean it in 2026.

      social media is when it’s tied to your real life identity and your body, it’s not anonymous posting on forums or message boards, which lemmy is more in the vein of.

      I don’t think anyone would regard my posts on forums and old.reddit.com as social media. if i had used reddit as a promotional tool for like my instagram business or as part of a personal brand I’m proving, yeah that would be very different.

      IME real social media people are those who have basically internalized the concept of self branding and see their lives as entirely performative for their audience, whether that be internet strangers or their real life friend group.

      • Malta Soron@sopuli.xyz
        3·
        3 days ago

        Exactly. The fun part of social media is(/was) finding people you know IRL and having an extra way to interact. The fun part of internet forums is finding people you didn’t know before and learning new stuff.

        • AskewLord@piefed.socialEnglish
          2·
          2 days ago

          yeah i used social media when it was a IRL friend circle, but that’s not how any of those platforms work anymore, they are all about selling you product via viral ads.

      • ApollosArrow@lemmy.world
        3·
        3 days ago

        This has honestly become a pet peeve of mine. At this point anything that has an internet connection is being called social media.

        • AskewLord@piefed.socialEnglish
          1·
          2 days ago

          Yeah. To me social media is specifically visual platforms where you are selling a personality.

          but let’s not mistake ourselves, the majority of internet use is social media use and has been for a decade. and it’s predominantly accessed via mobile devices, not computers.

  • Krudler@lemmy.worldEnglish
    10·
    2 days ago

    I belong to this weird online community where people show up and think they have these great ideas that they want to share with the world, most of them are ideas that have been implanted in their minds from prolonged exposure to some other social media experience 🤫

    • hansolo@lemmy.today
      2·
      2 days ago

      Same. I’m pretty sure I’ve never actually said “Lemmy” out loud. I might go my whole life without mentioning it.

      Now, Linux, on the other hand…

  • Jarlsburg@lemmy.world
    50·
    3 days ago

    I caused ~$100k damage to my middle school.

    I am going to fuzz some of the details for obvious reasons, but when I was in 8th grade, I was dealing with a chaotic home life and had just moved for the 3rd time in 8 years across the country. I hated the school and didn’t really have friends so developed some destructive habits.

    Our physical education teacher was a lazy, creepy, moron who would force us to run laps for an hour which let him sit in his office. He’d berate kids and give them mean racist nicknames and if you refused he would give you an F for your midpoint report which meant you couldn’t participate in any other sport or extracurricular activity the school sponsored. The class was half the grade at a time so it was over a hundred kids including the disabled kids and sometimes would just leave us unsupervised for an hour. At one point he crudely encouraged on two kids with downs syndrome make out, which they did while he watched and laughed and made fun of them. Just an evil spiteful man.

    So before and after class we had 15 minutes to get ready so I would go around the locker room and find anything that would fit in a toilet and flush it. Towels, clothes, backpacks, food, pencils, paper - all of it in the toilet. They had insane flush power so would violently suck it all down and I thought it was just funny. I did it off and on for a month.

    One day we heard gym was cancelled and then the school was cancelled the next day because of a facilities issue. Apparently the gym flooded pretty badly. We had to start having gym outside. Then after a couple weeks we had a school wide assembly and the superintendent was there and explained that a group of people had been flushing stuff down the toilet and they had to do a massive, emergency plumbing project that cost them $100k+. They were super mad and told us they already knew almost everyone who did it but if you come forward you won’t get expelled. Yeah, sure.

    Anyway, I had no friends and no one knew I was doing it so I just didn’t say anything and got away with it. Also, a few years later the gym teacher was fired allegedly for some sexual misconduct issue.

  • cinoreus@lemmy.world
    6·
    2 days ago

    The reason I got banned from reddit. I tried trading my account with someone back then, and likely got a permaban for that reason. Reddit never told me why I got permaban, but it’s likely the reason.

    The reason I tell everyone is that it’s because I was the moderator of the rule 34 subreddit of my country’s prime minister( which I actually was).

  • InfiniteGlitch@lemmy.dbzer0.com
    40·
    3 days ago

    I will probably get downvoted for this but anyway; I cheated half my university years, 2 of the 4 years. This was in the Coronapandemic.

    What contributed to my decision back then;

    • Professors that did not want to actually teach.
    • Online classes that were a disaster.
    • Was not allows to ask questions in online classes but only in physical ones… But there were no physical classes at that point.
    • magnetosphere@fedia.io
      281·
      3 days ago

      “If the university won’t take itself seriously, I won’t take it seriously either.” Sounds fair to me.

      • cinoreus@lemmy.world
        4·
        2 days ago

        The College I went to was horrible. In final years our entire syllabus and PPTs AI generated shit. I technically passed them without studying, but what was even the point of what I did? To delay unemployment?

    • Postmortal_Pop@lemmy.world
      10·
      3 days ago

      My stance has always been that It’s only cheating if you didn’t learn. If you can apply what you were supposed to learn then you were just using your resources wisely.

    • fodor@lemmy.zip
      3·
      3 days ago

      You don’t get downvotes for that. Ideally getting a degree gives you knowledge, skills, and a piece of paper. But if all you get is the piece of paper, then depending on your situation, that’s not a terrible outcome.

    • Prime@lemmy.sdf.org
      2·
      3 days ago

      I teach at uni. sorry to hear that. Did you try to get the problems fixed, even if not successfully? Did you still try to learn and understand the material? If so, i won’t blame you.

      It’s tough because on this side, the overhead and also the cheating exploded with COVID and with ai. We need more people to improve classes but there is no money and everyone is over capacity. My class grew from 25 to 150 students within 3 years and there is no help.

      • InfiniteGlitch@lemmy.dbzer0.com
        2·
        3 days ago

        Did you try to get the problems fixed, even if not successfully?

        Yeah. Tried to explain that since we did not have any physical classes, that it meant we would not be able to ask anything then. Professor did not respond and I remember many classmates back then just wrote things like ‘‘What is with this person?’’ and ‘‘I’m out bye’’ etc (mind you, it was Coronapandemic so everything was online and done through either chat system or voice chat and many just typed).

        Did you still try to learn and understand the material?

        Definitely! So what I did was study all the material as much as I could and made summaries of it within a Word document and used that Word document on my phone through the exams. Though, we also had a lot of group chats through WhatsApp and shared everything. When I think back about it, it seems unreal of what happened. Cheating the system was immensely easy even when we had to use our camera’s and show the room we did the exams in (both classes and the exams were online).

        It’s tough because on this side, the overhead and also the cheating exploded with COVID and with ai.

        So, yeah. I agree with that, really. I had some great professors as well and they had it really tough, which was notable. Cheating in Coronapandemic times was bound to happen. However, the way the University handled things just made things worse and made even the people who never thought about cheating, cheating. In my entire study path/ academic career, I never thought I do cheat. I always had this ‘‘honor, dignity and proud’’ kind of mindset because I originally came from practical school (children who could not or did not want to study) and climbed my way up. Yet here I was full blown cheating at some point.

        We need more people to improve classes but there is no money and everyone is over capacity.

        Governments just need to stop cutting funds of schools/ universities and give professors the salary they deserve.

        • Prime@lemmy.sdf.org
          2·
          1 day ago

          You did well, mate. You can hold your head high. I’m from an anti-education environment so I can relate to your sentiment.

          I’m not a prof myself, but a PhD student with teaching duty. My prof went full emergency/survival mode this year to somehow deal with the amount of students. It’s going to be a worse experience for the students even though he and the PhD students spent a lot more time than usual on preparations. I’m only able to speak from my own viewpoint, but I’d put the blame on, partially, the uni admin for ignoring the issues, but mostly on political neglect. With conservatives in power here in Germany, I have little hope. And in the US, I’d probably have left.

  • Monster96@lemmy.world
    27·
    3 days ago

    I draw porn sometimes. No one I know will ever see it and those who do won’t ever know I did it